2023-12-27
I had a consultation with an astrologer recently and they said, "I don't really see the Venus in Scorpio in you." In my head I was like, "Oh man, I feel Venus in Scorpio in everything I do."
The way I consume music is the first thing that came to mind. This is so significant for me because music is like a cornerstone of my personality so I spend a lot of time in this realm. What elevates a song from "this is a banger" to "this is imprinted onto my soul now" is the emotional intensity of a song. This usually means that the music can evoke a certain mood that resonates deeply with me and, at the same time, the lyrics are relatable. Songs that are like this are almost always a little more darker in tone, topic, or sound. That's not to say I don't like lighthearted music. I can appreciate a good up-beat song once in a while but the songs that make an impression on me are usually darker. For example, I like K-pop. It's fun. Relatively cheery. Very colourful. But I am mostly just interested in songs like Want by TAEMIN or 28 Reasons by Seulgi or Galaxy by LADIES' CODE. Kinda not what K-pop is known for.
Speaking of certain artists... When it comes to musicians in particular, I often obsess over them as well with their music. I dive deep into their Wikipedia pages. I watch interviews. I read biographies. I watch concert videos. I write fan-fic. I read every single article I can come across. I daydream. I fantasize. Sometimes I even make websites devoted to them. But yeah. I'm one of those fans. I try my best not to display it outwardly (unless you follow my music alt fedi account and in that case, you know what you signed up for) so it is something that I try to keep to myself. 12th house things.
Another place where I feel very Venus in Scorpio is in my romantic relationships. This could be due to Pluto being so close to my Venus but when I have my heart set on someone, I get obsessive. It's either 0 or 100 for me, no in between. I get possessive. Jealous. It's an all-consuming feeling. I want to merge (physically, spiritually, mentally) with the other person. I can't stop thinking about them. I fantasize about them. Obviously, this isn't healthy and, often times, not necessarily even love, but it is a pattern that I see.
It makes sense though why the astrologer I spoke to couldn't see this in me, though. All of this is taking place in my 12th house. The 12th house is what is hidden, buried, subconscious. A lot of this stuff is what goes on in my interior. Sometimes it leaks out into the material world but mostly, I keep it inside. The astrologer I saw did mention how Venus in the 12th can indicate affairs. I've never cheated but I do often find myself attracted to people who are in relationships. Again, not a healthy habit and I never act on it because I am morally against it. It's just another pattern that I see.
So. Yeah. That's my case for 12th house Venus in Scorpio. I don't take the things I like lightly. I feel it intensely, mostly to my detriment (Venus in Scorpio is in detriment, after all). But astrology is all just patterns, at the end of the day. Things can go off script. And what makes astrology work is that the archetypes can be so broad and general that you can just about apply it to anything. Still. I enjoy astrology. And I definitely see 12th house Venus in Scorpio in me.