2023-12-24
I'm always dehydrated but these days I actually feel it. My mouth feels perpetually dry. I think it's because I've been talking more than I usually do.
After I stop talking, I get hit by a feeling of loneliness. Regrets pile up in my mind after I talk. "Why did I say that? What was the point of that? I should have just kept my mouth shut."
It's been literally years since I've talked about myself, to another person, in such depth, with my own voice. Even if it's the trivial things, I feel like I'm sharing my own soul. There are so many things I want to say. I want to be seen, to be understood.
I've been saying things to the wrong person.
I'm sorry, stranger, it's so selfish of me.
I should stay hydrated.