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2024 Concerts

2025-01-02

I went to a ton of shows in 2024. I owe it all to music festivals! I love traveling to attend music fests. I was lucky enough to go to two this year, which is where I saw pretty much all of the shows. I wrote about one of them here. In total, I was able to see 38 shows! I've never seen so many shows in a year before.

The shows in question, in no particular order:

  • My Chemical Romance x 2
  • Fall Out Boy x 2
  • Coheed and Cambria x 2
  • L.S. Dunes x 2
  • Protest the Hero
  • '68
  • Underoath
  • Silverstein
  • Cobra Starship
  • The Linda Lindas
  • Rancid
  • Green Day
  • Gouldie Boutilier
  • Logic
  • Noah Cyrus
  • The Grogans
  • Billy Talent
  • KYLE
  • TOBi
  • Grandson
  • The Lazys
  • The Beaches
  • Neck Deep
  • The Used
  • The Maine
  • Valley
  • Chelsea Cutler
  • Jeremy Zucker
  • Benson Boone
  • Saosin
  • Orville Peck
  • 3OH!3
  • Ocean Alley
  • The Smashing Pumpkins

The Good

Silverstein

I felt compelled to go see Silverstein, even though I liked maybe two or three Silverstein songs before seeing them. When I was younger, I was really obsessed with their song, "Discovering the Waterfront" to the point of even buying it from iTunes. I managed to listen to some more just before the festival and found a couple of more favourites, but I still wasn't familiar with their discography. I somehow found myself right at the barrier, which felt a little bit wrong, not being a super fan of theirs.

I don't regret it though, because I ended up beside this really sweet couple. They let me stand in front of the taller of the two (and he was so tall, like at least six feet) at the barrier. Their energy was so great, I think it rubbed off on me. But really, Shane (the lead vocalist), totally went all out. He sounded so good! And he kept saying throughout the set that this crowd was way better than the previous day. Really, I think everyone was bouncing off of each other's energy, which was so cool. People were just in sync. That's part of a reason why I love concerts, when the conditions are right, it's like a mutual exchange of love.

Anyway, every single song Silverstein performed was amazing. I definitely belted out to "Ides of March" and "Discovering the Waterfront." Seriously, one of the best sets I saw that weekend.

My Chemical Romance

To continue the nostalgia trip, I was absolutely floored when I saw My Chemical Romance. I saw them twice and thank goodness I did because their set on the second day was just so much better. I cried both nights. It's probably the nostalgia goggles but I like could not let go of listening to MCR for a solid two months after seeing them.

Noah Cyrus

Beforehand, I had never really listened to Noah Cyrus. I did not expect to enjoy her music, but I really did! It mostly sounded like country, and honestly, just good vibes throughout. She also looked amazing. The outfit she was wearing looked like something out of the Dune franchise. And she was a total sweetheart on stage: joking, frequently telling people to drink water, and stopping to point out people who need medics. Overall, she really put on a good show! She's definitely got a great voice.

Grandson

Another unexpected act was Grandson. I have listened to one of his albums before, for an album club some years ago but I didn't revisit it beforehand. That album was one of my favourites from the album club, despite its incredibly dark material. Even with the dark material, Grandson really let loose on stage. His presence was amazing, especially for a one man act, who mostly stayed in one place while playing a guitar. I think a part of this was because he was just an opener and you really gotta go all out for a crowd who may or may not know you. He was also very sweet, he asked us to introduce yourself to the person next to you. Incredibly awkward, but I appreciated the sentiment.

The set was honestly a bit of a rollercoaster, emotion wise. I found myself disassociating a bit midway through (probably the heat and lack of water and also the hard hitting lyrics) and of course, that's when I felt that he made eye contact with me. I wasn't super close but close enough to see his face clearly, and it embarrassed me a bit. But I was brought back to life, and headbanged my way through the rest of the set. At the end, he even started climbing one of the structures and I was low key terrified for him, hah. Still, it was a great show!

Green Day

Green Day changed my life forever. Really. They were the first band I got into, and I started writing mainly because of them. I wrote a ton of Green Day fanfic in my junior high school days. And eventually, the Green Day fansite I posted fanfic on, evolved into a more serious fanfic site that included custom HTML layouts for your stories. I partly began to take web dev seriously because of it. I made my first online friends on those sites. Who knows where would I be now without them?

Honestly, I don't know how I made it to 29 without ever going to any of their shows. When I learned that they were doing an "American Idiot" and and a "Dookie" tour, I just had to buy tickets. And I don't regret it one bit. It's probably one of the best shows I have ever seen. Despite being in their 50s, these guys can still put on a show. And it was like two hours long, at least. I cried a little. I was so happy for the rest of the night and also incredibly sad that it was over. I wanted more!

The not so good

Protest the Hero

I love this band a ton. They were doing a tour of my favourite album, "Volition." And it was great. Rody was funny as always. His voice sounded great. The rest of the guys absolutely killed it. But. I feel like something always goes wrong whenever I go to a Protest the Hero concert. Gross bodily fluids warning incoming, skip to the next paragraph if you get queasy easily, but I managed to get both diarrhea and my period in the middle of the show. I was so miserable. I did manage to catch all the songs I wanted to hear, but ugh. Not great timing. I feel like it's cursed for me to go to their shows.

Logic

While Logic still put an amazing show, I was so disappointed in the length of the show. He stopped twice to admonish the crowd who were throwing stuff at him. To be clear, that's not his fault at all. What kind of fans actually do that? It's such a waste of time to stop and then get scolded by a celebrity. The next thing is kind of his fault, but he kept talking throughout. Which, okay, he hasn't had a concert in a while, I can forgive him for that. But the combo of the two just really ate up his set time. And then he went over time. And then they actually put some random DJ on after him. Who decided that?? Literally 3/4 of the crowd left after Logic. He really should have just been given more time and ended the night.

I shouldn't complain too much. I danced my fucking heart out at the show. I even cried during one of his monologues. It was a ton of fun and he played so many of the hits.

Orville Peck

I am sorry to any Orville Peck fans out there, but I did not enjoy his show. I think I went to his show, hoping to change my mind on his music. That didn't really happen, sadly. I think what bothers me the most about his music, is that his voice feels "put on." I've only really listened to "Stampede" so maybe I need to listen to some more. I really just cannot get past the campiness and theatrics. I like what he stands for, I like his costumes, I've been growing on country as a genre, and he seems like a decent guy, but I just can't get into his music.

2025?

I only have one music festival and one concert planned for this year. I'm seeing My Chemical Romance, again, in Toronto. I'm so excited. I hope it's just as magical as the last time. I also hope to go to see some local bands. For some reason, I am afraid of small, intimate venues. I feel like it's just so much easier to stand out that way, and I do not like to be perceived. But I want to see what my city has to offer in terms of music!

I'll give it another shot

2025-01-01

I utterly failed the 100 days to offload challenge last year. I have probably attempted it every year since I've heard of it. However, last year was probably my best attempt at it. I wrote 63 posts which is better than I have ever done before. It definitely got me blogging more, which I think is the point of the challenge. But I keep falling short of that coveted 100 posts milestone.

Like everything, things started to waver around July. Every time I hit the mid-year mark, everything kinda just starts falling apart. I missed three months of blogging from June to August. That's like a quarter of the year, so not an insignificant amount of time. I've talked about it before, but I think the main thing is that structure starts to fall away during the summer months. I don't quite know how to counter that.

The productivity gurus would probably say that my systems failed me. "You should be able to still be productive during your worst days," they'd say. Additionally, it's easy enough to say, "just build up the habit!" But for the first six months, it was a pretty consistent habit. One small thing can make me fall off the wagon a few times, and then the habit is obliterated. I think what I need to focus on, is getting back on the horse as fast as possible. Which is also easier said than done.

In the end, productivity management is just energy and emotional management. I definitely find that I'm more productive in the morning, which is why I like waking up hours before work starts, so I can do personal things before work. I use my brain too much at work, and because of that, doing things that require concentrated effort in the evening can be a bit of disaster unless I'm feeling super disciplined that day, which is more of an emotional thing, I think.

We'll see if all of this introspection will lead to results. I'm optimistic that it will. Let's try it again this year.

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Week #25 & #26 - Dec 18 to Dec 31

2024-12-31

Caution
Mentions of alcohol, meat, and food.

The last week note of 2024! I haven't started writing any 2024 summary posts yet because the last month of the year has been so busy.

๐ŸŽ“ End of the semester

  • โœ๏ธ I had two finals. For the first one, I actually needed to hire an exam proctor service. I had to go to a small college and had to go in a tiny classroom to write the exam. I haven't sat in a classroom in like five years and it suddenly hit me that, "oh shit, I really am doing a degree right now." My second final was just an online exam and a lot less rigorous, thankfully. I really hate essay exams, they are so stressful.

๐ŸŽ„Christmas

  • ๐ŸŽ‰ I tried writing this post on the 24th and utterly failed because I was very drunk on Christmas Eve. We went to my aunt from my mom's side. Her in laws were there and they really like to party. It was a lot of fun. Played some party games and did group karaoke. We even sang some K-pop! My cousin is even more into K-pop than I am and he could sing some of Korean while the rest of us just sang the English bits.
  • ๐ŸŽ Actual Christmas day was a bit more low key. We went to mass in the morning and just kinda chilled. In the evening we had a small get together with my aunt on my dad's side and two of her kids. It was nice bonding.
  • ๐ŸŽ… Listened to a tooooon of Christmas music. It was a very Mariah Carey and Frank Sinatra Christmas. My dad got Bluetooth speakers for Christmas and he's been playing a lot of Filipino Pasko songs too. It's very cute to hear my mom or dad say, "We used to dance to this when we were kids."

๐Ÿ’ป Server stuff

  • ๐ŸŒ I moved all my websites to a new server. Mainly because it was cheaper. Despite the lower price tag, I think it's about the same in terms of the hardware, and even with more disk space!

๐ŸŽˆ Turning 30

  • ๐Ÿง“ I turned 30 yesterday. I totally do not feel 30. I've never really felt any of my ages, really. The only time is in comparison to others. I think what freaks me out the most is going to a restaurant or cafe and the servers or baristas looking younger and younger. For a decade I always thought of them as peers and now we're slowly becoming not peers.
  • ๐Ÿฅฉ For my brithday, we went out for all you can eat Korean BBQ. I loooove KBBQ. It's a lot of fun grilling at the table and the sauces are so good! We definitely over ate though haha.
  • ๐ŸŽ‚ Helped my brother bake my cake. It was a vanilla yema (Filipino egg custard) cake and so good. We had to eat the cake at home though, because we ran out of time at the KBBQ place.
  • ๐Ÿฅ‚ My brother drove my aunt on my dad's side and her kids home while the rest of us went in our separate cars. They were taking a while and in my head, I was like "they're totally buying alcohol." When they finally arrived, they brought bottles of soju. That's my favourite drink, hah. We drank all of them and talked about our lives. A lot of chismis, hah.

๐ŸŽต Music

  • ๐Ÿ’ฟ I finally downloaded (most of) my library from Spotify. My coworker kicked me off of her Spotify family plan. I was on it for 5 years. We used to be close-ish but drifted apart and I hardly ever see her in the office because she comes in the morning and then dips. I've been using fooyin on desktop and Symfonium on Android to play music. I've definitely noticed that my music listening habits have changed. Because my playlists weren't ported over (yet) I've just listening to the artists I know and love, instead of seeking out specific tracks.

  • ๐Ÿ“ˆ Week #25 top artists: Frank Ocean, L'Arc~en~Ciel, IDLES, ใใฎใ“ๅธๅ›ฝ, NewJeans, Mitski, My Chemical Romance, and Cancer Bats. I randomly decided to listening to Frank Ocean's Channel Orange album a few times through. And went through my favourite Cancer Bats songs too. 2024-12-24

  • ๐Ÿ“‰ Week #26 top artists: NewJeans, My Chemical Romance, Frank Sinatra, TWICE, Alexisonfire, XG, and Luna Li. I listened to TWICE's new mini and... All I gotta say is I like it like it. Kai, XG, MCR, and NewJeans were some of those musicians that I just listened to because it's easier to find them in my library, hah. And Frank Sinatra is there because of Christmas!

2024-12-31

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Things astrologers have said about my 2025

2024-12-28

Every year I like to get my solar return chart read (basically, predicting what my next birthday year is like). And I also watch a ton of 2025 rising sign YouTube videos. These are things astrologers/astrology enthusiasts have said about Sagittarius risings and/or to me specifically for 2025. Let's see what comes true.

  • My department move that work told me was going to happen in January, will actually happen in March (told during a Mercury retrograde, 10H eclipse in March)
  • I will almost definitely meet someone and get into a relationship (Jupiter in 7H WSH and placidus, SR moon conjunct SR descendant, progressed Venus conjunct Juno, 7H profection year)
    • I will probably meet them at work (ruler of 7H WSH in 2H, Capricorn)
    • I will be the one who starts the relationship (ruler of 7H placidus in 1H and combust my sun)
    • My parents may be highly critical of them (Jupiter in Gemini squaring Saturn)
    • They might be older than I am (ruler of 7H in Capricorn, ruler sextile Saturn)
    • They might (one person even said, should) be the opposite of me (7H opposing the 1H)
    • They might be a very serious person but chatty (Gemini 7H but ruler is in Capricorn)
    • It might be a more of a transactional relationship (7H ruler is Mercury, Capricorn Mercury)
    • They might be foreign (7H ruler going retrograde in 9H)
    • Might not see them realistically (Neptune in 5H)
    • Might be moving too fast (Uranus in 7H)
    • Might be American (Uranus in 7H)
    • Someone very different to what I'm usually attracted to (Uranus in 7H)
  • High propensity for getting pregnant (eclipses in 5H, Saturn and Uranus in 5H)
  • I'll be thinking what brings me joy, trying new hobbies (Venus retrograde)
  • My spark will be reignited, some sort of new passion (Venus retrograde)
  • Might be getting into fights with my siblings (Pluto in 3H)
  • Receiving a grant, inheritance, sponsorship (Jupiter in 8H)
  • Health or accident or appearance changes (lord of the year going retrograde in 12/1H)
  • Stress and anxiety with school (Mars retrograde in 9H opposite Pluto)
  • May be moving due to political situation, or family talking about moving (Saturn moving out of 4H)
  • Realizing things about my home situation, exit strategy (or lack of it) becoming clear (Neptune moving out of 4H)
  • Long haul travel not recommended (Mars retrograde in 9H opposite Pluto)
  • Stuff somehow just working out for the best (mutual reception between Mercury and Jupiter despite both being in detriment, no final depositer it's just the two of them)
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An argument you can't win

2024-12-20

It's funny when life imitates art. I'm reading Anna Karenina right now and in one scene, two brothers are arguing over giving access to education to everyone, including peasants. One of them lays out the facts. The other considers the facts and more or less thinks, "yeah, but I just don't care." I feel like I see this argument play out over and over again, but not everyone is as willing to admit that they don't care or have a personal vested interest in what is "right" or "true." So how can you argue with those people, then? Is it even worth arguing with them?

Can you force people to care about something? If appealing to logic doesn't work, does one have to appeal to emotion? Authority? What do you have to do?

On a sillier topic, I had an argument with my mom about something. She wanted me to do something for the sake of looking better in front of other people. But I don't care about that. Literally nothing she could say would make me change my mind. It was an example of clashing values. I just found it funny how it kinda mirrored the same conversation in Anna Karenina between Levin and his brother.

Anyway, I'm not a philosopher, and I'm bad at rhetoric, but it's something I think about sometimes. No answers, only questions.