Week #16 - Sep 23 to Sep 30 2024

2024-10-01

• 📚 Re-read the first few volumes of Ao Haru Ride again and cried. I posted on the Fediverse about this but I just find Ao Haru Ride perfect. There is something about the characters that just hit me in the right way, despite their archetypes being so prominent in the romance genre. It's really puzzling to me. But it's such a good read.
• 🪩 Went to the club for the first time with my brother and a friend of his. It was a K-Pop themed night. They played mostly stuff I haven't heard before but still managed to dance a lot! The crowd went wild every time there was a NewJeans song or an old classic banger, haha. It was fun!
• 📜 Fell super behind on ModPo. For some reason, I lost all motivation and steam for absolutely anything productive at all, last week.
• 🎓 Because I felt so unwilling to do anything productive, I ended up procrastinating the heck out of school work. I stayed up until 1 AM on Friday trying to finish a major essay. Ugh. And last night I did the same thing (but only stayed up until 11PM, lol, progress).
• 🎒 My backpack was on its last leg and so I bought a new backpack! It's a Beis backpack. Definitely pricey but seeing as how I plan on using it for both travel and work, I think it is worth the investment. It's really roomy and I am loving how there is a separate laptop compartment.
• 😞 Overall, it felt like a blah week with very few memorable moments or moments worth writing about. I am exhausted and tired. My sleep schedule definitely has a part to play in this (I'm sleeping in a whole lot more) but I'm not sure what could be the source of my unproductiveness.

Week #15 - Sep 16 to Sep 22 2024

2024-09-24

• 📚 Finished reading a graphic novel memoir, Fetch: How a Bad Dog Brought Me Home. I need to put pet memoirs on my reading blacklist. This made me cry and rush over to hug my cat. The art style took some getting used to, it's not super polished. It had a DIY-zine feel to it, so I was not surprised when the artist mentioned her zine-making teen days.
• 📚 I read yet another graphic novel A Righteous Thirst for Vengeance, which is a rather violent and gory journey in revenge against a mobster in charge of a sex trafficking ring led by a man who suspiciously looks like Donald Trump. It was alright. The gory bits made me squirm a bit. I can't take blood.
• 💿 A band that I like, The Voidz came out with a new album. I was really hyped for this one but it kinda fell flat for me. Disappointing, but not every release will be a hit. After listening to it a few more times, I see it in a better light but still feel like I want something more from it.
• 📜 ModPo had us read some Ezra Pound. The only thing I knew about Pound beforehand was that he was a fascist who supported Mussolini, so I was surprised that some of my favourite this week were authored by him. They are really lean poems but they say so much. These two poems in particular feel so delicate, both in content and in form.
• 📜 Another poet we read quite a bit of this week was William Carlos Williams. I very much appreciate how Williams can take simple, mundane, and even broken images and then celebrate them. In an aesthetic sense, I can't say that Williams tickles the pleasure sections of my brain like Pound does.
• 🎉 Partied hard over the weekend. My dad's birthday party was on Saturday. Ate a toooon of food. A lot of the men got super wasted, hah. On Sunday, it was my it was a family friend's 25th wedding anniversary. I was the flower girl for their wedding. Time flies! We went to a Chinese buffet and ate even more!
• 🎥 On Saturday, my brother and I watched Smile (2022). It was definitely... A movie. I'm not one for horror, I really dislike jump scares. I got jump scared a few times. The premise seemed pretty interesting but the ending was so unsatisfying. There were a couple of moments that were surprisingly just corny and made us burst out laughing when it was definitely supposed to be a serious moment. 6 out of 10 movie.

Laughter is the best medicine

2024-09-23

Note: This is not a sponsored post. All opinions are entirely mine.

I have recently learned that I am a simple person.

A few months ago, I was feeling super down. So what did I do? I hopped onto Reddit, specifically the /r/JeffArcuri subreddit. I watched a few videos and immediately felt better.

Jeff is a comedian who suddenly blew up on Reddit. He does fantastic crowd work and I really like his stuff. I'm not really a stand-up comedy person so it was a surprise. What I really like about Jeff is that he feels like a genuine guy. He kinda just says whatever comes to his mind and it's always funny. What I like about his kind of funny is that rarely is it ever just making fun of a person. He tries to be respectful and sometimes, his awkwardness in trying to be respectful is even the punchline. He's just so good!

After signing off at work today, I felt ready to fall asleep. I debated taking a nap but decided against it because naps always turn into an all day thing for me. I couldn't risk it because I had an assignment due that day. With my eyes drooping and my mind feeling fuzzy, I opened up my laptop to get start some school work. Turns out that I left my browser on the Jeff Arcuri subreddit. I refreshed the page and saw that Jeff had posted a clip just 5 hours earlier. It was only 3 minutes long, so I obviously watched it instead of immediately working on my assignment.

As soon as the first laugh escaped me, I didn't feel tired anymore. My mind instantly cleared up. I was astounded. It sounds crazy but I swear this is what happened.

So, it seems like in most situations, a good comedy clip is enough to perk me up. Feeling sad? Jeff Arcuri. About to fall asleep when I really should be working? Jeff Arcuri. Just need a good laugh out of me to get going.

Pancit

2024-09-19

This may be cheating. This following excrept is from an assignment I wrote but I wanted to share it here, too.

When I was younger, I didn’t know what it meant to be Filipino. From elementary to junior high school, I was one of three Filipinos in my grade. Everyone else was White. I constantly compared my very Filipino family to my friends and their very Canadian families. In my rebellious preteen eyes, the only interesting thing Filipinos had was food.

What comes to mind is pancit, a simple noodle dish. It was a dish I didn’t love immediately. The turning point was during a trip to the Philippines. It was my grandfather’s death anniversary, and, to my surprise, there was a big celebration. I was used to pancit at Filipino gatherings. It’s a staple to any Filipino party. What I didn’t expect was pancit at what seemed like a somber event.

I distinctly remember my aunts on the cement kitchen floor, squatting around a giant wok. Woks are big to begin with, but this wok was unlike any other I had seen before. It was about half the size of a dining table. They ladled out spoonsful of pancit from the wok onto paper plates. My dad instructed me to take the paper plates and distribute them to people waiting outside. We ended up doing this for an hour and a half, and, somehow, the wok never seemed to run out of noodles.

My father later told me that most of those people outside were not relatives. Some were people that no one had ever met before. He joked that, “people smelled the food and came over.” I was stunned.

That's part of my assignment. The rest of it is just the boring history of pancit.

What this excerpt reminds me of is community. I don't think I have a solid community that I can turn to these days. Individual people, maybe, but not a community. I find it quite hard to break into them, often feeling like an outsider. My strategy is usually to observe the dynamics and how people talk to each other, so I have an idea of how to participate. This works for text-based online communities. In person, it can be read as weird and creepy. As you can probably tell, I'm not the fearless extrovert type.

I think another part of it is that I can be very distant. Showing my vulnerabilities can be hard for me. I often wonder if I am overstepping. Or fearing not being accepted. I think having community requires openness and willing to be vulnerable, both of which I have trouble with.

I wish I could say that I'm working on it, but I'm really not. It's not high on my priority list these days but maybe it should be.

No Hobonichi box this year

2024-09-17

After ordering from Hobonichi for 5 years in row, this will be the first time that I do not have the Hobonichi box. After looking at all the offerings Hobonichi had for 2025, I realized that I didn't care to buy more than one Hobonichi planner this year, or any other accessories.

I used to be a big cover person for my Hobonichi. But I've been using Hobonichi since 2020 (bought my first Hobonichi in 2019) and I've largely used the books at home. Now that I'm leaving my house more often, I'm realizing how much of a pain it is to carry around a bulky A5 Hobonichi with a cover on it. Of course, you don't need a cover, but the regular Hobonichi Cousin is just plain ugly without it. I'm usually not a form over function kind of girl but aesthetics matter to me quite a lot. I was originally going to try to buy the Hobonichi Original, which is quite sophisticated looking. It is all black, with a faux leathery look to it and gold embossed logo on it. However, it was only available in A6. I need an A5 for my day to day. It just wasn't feasible.

Enter Sterling Ink. For my planning and journalling, I realized that maybe I needed to try something else. But that doesn't mean that I'll be abandoning Hobonichi entirely for 2025.

My plan for 2025 with Hobonichi is a simple one: I will be using the A6 HON Bow & Tie: Sushi for my book journal. I had a lot of success this year (2024) using my A6 HON as a book journal (you can see how I use it here) and wanted to keep it going into next year. It helped that I am in love with the sushi design and that it was the same design series as my 2024 A6 HON. It's not the most sophisticated look but it is cute and I love consistency. Seeing that I only wanted to buy one item with no accessories and shipping from Japan is exorbitantly expensive, I opted to go with a local group order.

It wasn't until I signed up for a group order did I realize that I wasn't going to get the cute Hobonichi box that come with the order. I was a bit disappointed but then I realized that every time I received one of the boxes, I never knew what to do with it. They definitely helped when I moved out of my apartment but I'm not going to be doing any moving soon. My second thought was that I wasn't going to be getting the Hobonichi pen. Thankfully, a pen is sent with every Techo ordered. Phew.

To my pleasant surprise, I also received a free notebook as well. The notebook comes with only certain techo(s). I didn't expect it and I am quite happy with it. I saw other people posting their notebook freebie and I'm quite glad that I received this design because it's my favourite one from the four different options. The art is apparently woodblock prints from the Meiji era. A very cool concept! I don't really know what I'll use this notebook for. It's an A6 size so maybe I'll carry it around with me just in case I need to quickly jot something down.

Below is a picture of my haul. At the top is just a pamphlet that came with the book. It's quite... Interesting. There is a masked man looming over a little boy, menacingly. I feel like it fits the Hobonichi design aesthetic so well. Like, just a touch of "what the fuck?" The bottom left is the freebie. I love the design on this. It looks like a black clouds against a blue sky. Or the shadow of clouds on the ocean. This small book is 160 pages, which is quite a lot! To the bottom right is the A6 HON. It's a bright yellow (usually not my vibe but I forgive it) and has pictures of little plates of sushi going diagonally across the book. It's so cute!

Despite a smaller than usual haul this year, I'm quite pleased with what I bought. I know that my wallet is grateful as well!