tipping the scales the other way

2024-01-21

Caution
Disordered eating. Weight loss.

i cupped my cheek and was shocked at how it

no longer filled my hand.

did i go too far? was i too zealous

in my delight of seeing the numbers slowly tick down to 0?

every part of myself is shrinking but i'm still

not yet satisfied. even though every time i look

in the mirror i am taken aback

by the person looking

back at me. i am afraid of hating

the person in the mirror,

as if the person in the mirror wasn't always me

the entire time.